Now a days when I write something, I always try to ask myself “Why am I writing this? ”
Back in the dark times, I never really gave it much thought. I was up at all hours of the night, and the words simply kept coming to me. Pain and anguish was my muse and the pen would just keep moving.
Horrible things flowing, like a raging river. Page after page of heartbreak, hopelessness and a story saturated with self loathing and joyful self destruction……I kept writing.
I thank God that my desire to write was strong back in the darkness. When I open those pages today ….I remember. I remember the gut wrenching terror that was my life before Christ saved me.
I am taken back to the places I had forgotten about. I read the rantings of a mad man that was once me, and all I can do is shout praise to Jesus for blessing me with freedom from that hell!
Pain was my only muse. Drama, chaos, abuse and horror stirred the passion…. until God
The love of Jesus has ignited a passion in a man that was far beyond hopeless. And I will shout it to anyone that will listen. Read my writings, before and after Christ. His power is real and He will work for you, of this I am sure.
He is alive and active, and I love it!!
Written by: Justin Ludwig