I spent my whole life taking…..
I think that harsh truth fuels my urgency to love in action. I spent most of my life serving myself. With a combination of self loathing, whispers from the enemy, and a haze from whatever I happened to be addicted to at the time, I was able to to ignore what I was, a bad person. A man completely consumed by sin.
I lied, cheated and stole indiscriminately. It didn’t matter if it was my mother or a stranger, I would manipulate them for my selfish needs, and when manipulation didn’t work I would just take. I was emotionally and at times physically abusive. I lied constantly, cheated and schemed for a living and I was okay that….. this is the confession of a dead man.
Once Christ came into my life my eyes suddenly were opened to my condition. Suddenly my heart wept over the thoughts of the things I had done…. I still cringe at some of these memories that I used to be okay with… I cringe at the thought that I was even okay with it. I suddenly was unable to bear the sight of my selfishness, my destructiveness….my sinfulness.
These thoughts of my past didn’t and don’t make me feel ashamed, because I am brand new. All of a sudden I had a desire to love…. to go out of my way for strangers and a need to want to make people’s lives better, not worse.
This is what God does to every single heart He touches. God is love, and when He touches us, we can’t help but respond.
Be the blessing and love well, because when we love God is present. God bless
“No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us.”
-1 John 4:12
“Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.” -1 John 4:8
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone and the new is here.”- 2 Cor 5:17
Written by: Justin Ludwig
2 thoughts on “Confession of a Dead Man ”
Your story continues to be an inspiration Justin!
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This reminds me of Nehemiah 8. The people were heartbroken to hear the law read to them, no doubt because they had not been following it, and in hearing it they were convicted of their many sins. The beautiful moment in this story is that while they mourned their sins, Nehemiah proclaimed the day to be holy unto God, and advised them that their strength is in the Joy of the Lord. We too can find strength in the joy of the Lord as we come to repentance. Thank you for sharing such a deep word. Blessings
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