It was about three weeks into Teen Challenge when I received some news that threw me over the edge. Because of it I had decided to give up. I immediately stopped caring and had decided that I was leaving. I was literally so angry I almost put my head into a window and then a poll. I was ranting, cussing as loud as I could and was trying to pick fights with guys I knew could beat me very badly. I had lost hope in my surroundings and I KNEW that there was nothing there for me……I sincerely had given up.
Amongst my insane rantings a small blonde guy came up to me as calm as could be and asked what was up. I proceeded to rant, panic, scream…..i mean, completely lose it. He looked at me with tears in his eyes and said, “F*** you, did you ever stop and thing that you aren’t here for you but that you’re here for me!?”
This statement/question stopped me dead in my tracks as if someone had shot me with a tranquilizer….it’s not about me. It was the ONLY thing that could have been said to calm me and give me perspective because in my own chaos and insanity all I could see was my own situation. Somehow my freak out reminded him of himself and it was the first time that he didn’t feel alone there……..
Each one of us must remember that we aren’t here for ourselves, we’re here for others
Written by: Justin Ludwig
My name is Justin Ludwig and I am a man on fire for God. I came to know Christ back in 2012 after a lifetime of darkness and selfishness. He changed my life in so many ways; He saved me from the bondage of addiction, self destruction and most importantly He saved me from hating myself. (click My Testimony)
Once I finally encountered the amazing love and grace of Christ, I decided I wanted to dedicate the rest of my life to glorifying His name, letting the world know what He has to offer and that there is hope for each one of us, thanks to the grace of God. I started RawDisciple Ministries in 2016 with the purpose of spreading the gospel, serving those in need and showing the world that they are loved,by me and more importantly by God. Through this ministry I reach out to the world however possible. I walk the streets and speak to the broken, the homeless and the addicted. I evangelize online around the world and I travel on missions trips to foreign countries to help bring light to this dark world.
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I notice people as I go about my day. Everyone I pass, I wonder what their story is…because we all got a story. When someone looks at me with hostility I wonder what happened in their life that got them to that point. When that happens I can’t help but see who so I used to be….who I am still capable of being.
I am drawn to the frustrated, hostile and the forgotten because I remember that feeling. I want to run up to everyone I see and tell them that they are loved, by me and by Jesus. And if I get punched in the face for doing it, so be it…. I try to avoid this whenever possible though 🙂 I am not talking like I’m some tough guy for Jesus, I just don’t want anyone to feel that they are alone in this.
With that said, I am extending an offer to pray for you and with you. If you want to praise God about something or just need a sincere ear to listen, this is my open invitation. This link takes you to my prayer blog where all submissions go directly to my email and are for my eyes only. Nothing is posted, there are no ads and I make absolutly no money by doing this. I am just a man who sincerly wants to pray for you and bless your life.
Be blessed and love well my friends
I was recently asked, “How have I and how am I enjoying my salvation?”
Enjoying my salvation involves me being free from beating myself up from my past, from wondering if there is hope or if I am good enough to be loved….
Sometimes I need to remember that
What is salvation to you?
For the longest time I have viewed my worry and stress as a glaring contradiction to my trust in God….
I trust Him, I truly do…. but I have always felt that the fact that I worry and stress was showing me that my faith isn’t as strong as I thought……i am starting to think that this isn’t the case at all.
I was talking with my pastor about this issue and he pointed out something in the form of a question. He asked me, “Are you turning back because of your fear and worry?” I told him, “No, because I know God has something in-store for me…. I just don’t know how to stop worrying because I feel like when I worry I am telling God I don’t trust Him.”
He told me “Justin, the fact that you are not turning back shows that you are trusting God. He draws us deeper and deeper into the water to prepare us for greater and harder things”
In that moment Holy Spirit whispered in my heart, “It is supposed to scary, that’s why you have Me.”…..
It is not important if we are afraid, what’s important is that we don’t turn back…. God will not give us more than we can handle….
In this life He is going to slowly but surely stretch us. It can be scary but if we make the decision to never turn back He will show up for us time and time again.
In the face of fear, choose faith